On the 5th Night, with 7 burning candles

Heya all

When my father told me that its my turn to write the blog today I was'nt really sure what to think.

Ok...lets back up a bit so that I can explain the background of the situation.

Today is the 5th night of Hannuka, which means that today it has been 5 years since my Grandpa Ben passed away.

Although I have had time to accept and understand what happened, it still hurts sometimes and I was not really sure if I was ready to confront it.

Well....Here it goes.

Today, 5 years ago, I went through one of the hardest days of my life. Why you ask? Well...Because I lost one of the most important people in the world to me. My Grandpa Ben was an incredible person, who loved me more then anything in the world...I was his baby girl. He was, and still is, my role model and I hope that I will be able to live a long and amazing life like he did. It is hard dealing with death, especially when you are only eleven and on the other end of the world from the person you know you should be with. I remember how hard it was for me back then, knowing that I will never see him or hear his voice again. His death really shocked me because just a few months earlier he had been healthy, and the idea of Leukemia had never crossed our minds. I am sure you all know how hard it is to say goodbye to a loved one...Well, I had to say goodbye to him 3 times. And each time hurt as much as the previous.

but enough with the weepy weepy emo stuff...

Grandpa, I love you and I miss you.

I hope you know how much you mean to me, and what a huge impact you had on my life.

I know that I might not see you for a while, but I know that you are looking down on me from where ever you are.

I hope I have made you proud, and that I accomplish everything you wanted me to.

You lived a long and amazing life, and I will always remember the lessons you taught me.

I will never forget the times that we had. I still remember how you used to sing to me, and play cards with me...I even remember how you spent half of your time while visiting Israel, teaching me maths. You meant more to me then anyone else in the world, and the impact you had on my life is eternal.

I just wish I could have had more time to spend with you.

I will never forget how you used to take me to macdonalds after school, or play casino with me...you always let me win.

So today, five years ago, I lost someone who meant the world to me...But I will never lose the love, lessons and memories that you gave me.

I hope that you are not disappointed in me and that I never let you down..Sometime people lose their way, but eventually someone is always there to show them the way to go home.

I will cherish the time we had and the memories you left me as long I as I live...or at least until senility gets me.

I will always love and miss you.

Sincerly,

Your ONLY Grandaughter Dylan

Well...now that that sob fest is over, I would like to remind you all what day it is today!

No..it is not the day before final exams which I should be studying for (Ok....maybe it is)

But it is also Tunes for Tuesday...day!

The first video I am gonna show you is a video to a song my Grandpa loved very very much. I don't know how crazy about this version he would be, but I love it.

This song has a lot of meaning to me and my family. I remember how hard it was for me to hear it the first few years after his death. But this song also bring back memories of me and my family driving along Loch Lomond listening to this very song...I never did see Nessie.

So Here it is

Loch Lomond by Runrig

The second video is a song which always reminds me of my Grandpa. He taught me to sing this song when I was about 10. I still have a video of us singing it together, but Im not really sure where it is...next year I'll upload it.

This song seems to have accompanied me through the years and plays itself in my head when I think of my Grandpa, or in general when I feel kind of lost.

This is one of the songs which I will never forget, in fact, I could not really settle on which video to use because until 15 minutes ago I had never heard anyone sing it accept me and my Grandpa...When this song plays itself in my head, I do not hear some recorded version. I hear my Grandpa singing it to me. And that my friends, is the best version of them all.

Well, I guess I better show you all the video, because all that I am doing at the moment is making myself cry.

The video itself might be pretty lame, but I love the song.

Show Me The Way To Go Home

So there it is......

Happy Hannuka everyone!

And remember, that Death is not the end.

BDO